Several big life decisions have been looming over my head lately. They all came to a head today, making me unfocused and anxious most of the day.
It started when an old employer forwarded me a job opportunity that she recommended me for. She said that I was the first person she thought of after reading the requirements. I was flattered and so grateful that she is still looking out for me, even though I have not worked for her in almost two years. Shows how much networking really can help in life
I read about the position, what was required, what was expected, and what it paid. The position did sound like something right up my ally.
Problem number 1: I already have a job that I am not actively looking to leave. This may have been different 6 months ago, but not right now. While I still want to get into a field I love, I have unfinished business at this one. I don’t actually want to leave until I accomplish what I need to there.
Problem number 2: I really want to move. The east coast has been driving me insane! I need to get away and fast! I can’t think about taking a new position if I’m leaving the area, but this one sounds almost perfect for me.
These 2 main problems, also caused other ones to spin off.
What if I still haven’t finished what I need to at my current job when my lease is up?
What if this new career opportunity is what I’m meant to do?
What if I can’t find another opportunity that is comparable to either of these?
All of this went through my head while I was showering. I usually relax in the shower. I can’t relax when freaking out. It was not a good start to the day.
Then, a very wise woman told me to flip a coin to make any and all of these big life decisions. I was at first very confused. This is a smart, successful woman who I respect professionally and personally, would she really make a life decision based on a coin flip?
Luckily she explained a bit further before I had to also rethink how I felt about her as a person. She told me that if I flip a coin, with heads being move and tails being stay and I get heads, I will know everything I need to. It’s the reaction you have to the outcome that makes the decision. If the coin says move and I am disappointed then I guess I’m not ready to move.
Her theory scares me as much as elates me. I would love to just MAKE A DECISION and be done with it so I can plan accordingly. But, if I realize I’m not ready to move a brand new can of worms is opened about what to do with my life here.
Can I flip a coin to decide if I’m going to flip a coin to make this decision?